Tuesday, March 20, 2012


I feel so free tonight, a very heavy load is off of me. The Lord has removed some people out of my life, that only knew how to take and never gave anything back. Nothing is worst to me than to be with people who only see with an evil eye and become one of cruel words.
Mt 6:23, " But if your eye is evil, your whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in you is darkness, how great is that darkness!"
Lu 11:34 The light of the body is the eye. Therefore when your eye is sound, your whole body also is full of light. But when your eye is evil, your body also is full of darkness.
I asked the Lord why is these people so bitter and cruel?
This is what was given to me.
People become bitter over their lives they have because of their own choices and then hate everyone whom they think they just fell into a good life.
James 3:14 But if you have bitter jealousy and strife in your hearts, do not glory and lie against the truth.
Heb 12:15 looking diligently lest any fail of the grace of God, or lest any root of bitterness springing up disturb you, and by it many are defiled,
Luke 13:7 "Then he said to the keeper of his vineyard, 'Look, for three years I have come seeking fruit on this fig tree and find none. Cut it down; why does it use up the ground?' 8 "But he answered and said to him, 'Sir, let it alone this year also, until I dig around it and fertilize it. 9 'And if it bears fruit, well. But if not, after that you can cut it down.'" So even Jesus used this parable to not let it used up your life. The tree got only four years to produce fruit. Some people in our lives that has been with us for years will never celebrate what we do for them or for the Kingdom for that matter. So as one of my sisters told me, LET THEM GO! And Mike Murdox says NEXT!

Sunday, March 11, 2012



At the age of 33,
Jesus was condemned to the death .

At the time
crucifixion was the "worst" death. Only the worst
criminals were condemned to be crucified. Yet it was
even more dreadful for Jesus, unlike
other criminals condemned to death by
crucifixion Jesus was to be nailed to the
cross by His hands and feet.

Each nail
was 6 to 8 inches long.

The nails
were driven into His wrist. Not
into His palms as is commonly
portrayed. There's a tendon in the wrist that
extends to the shoulder. The Roman guards knew
that when the nails were being hammered into the
wrist that tendon would tear and
break, forcing Jesus to use His back
muscles to support himself so that He could

Both of His feet
were nailed together. Thus He was forced to
support Himself on the single nail that
impaled His feet to the cross. Jesus could
not support himself with His legs because of the pain
so He was forced to alternate between arching His
back then using his legs just to continue to
breathe. Imagine the struggle, the pain, the
suffering, the courage.

Jesus endured this
reality for over 3 hours.

over 3 hours! Can you imagine this kind of
suffering? A few minutes before He died,
Jesus stopped bleeding. He was simply pouring water
from his wounds.

From common images
we see wounds to His hands and feet and even the spear wound
to His side... But do we realize His wounds
were actually made in his body. A hammer
driving large nails through the wrist, the feet overlapped
and an even large nail hammered through the arches, then a
Roman guard piercing His side with a spear. But
before the nails and the spear Jesus was whipped and
beaten. The whipping was so severe that it tore the
flesh from His body. The beating so horrific that His
face was torn and his beard ripped from His face. The
crown of thorns cut deeply into His scalp. Most men
would not have survived this torture.

He had no more blood
to bleed out, only water poured from His
The human adult body contains about 3.5 liters
(just less than a gallon) of blood.

Jesus poured all 3.5
liters of his blood; He had three nails hammered into His
members; a crown of thorns on His head and, beyond
that, a Roman soldier who stabbed a spear into His

All these without
mentioning the humiliation He suffered after carrying His own
cross for almost 2 kilometers, while the crowd spat in his
face and threw stones (the cross was almost 30 kg of weight,
only for its higher part, where His hands were

Jesus had to endure
this experience, to open the
Gates of Heaven,
so that you can have free
access to God.

So that your sins
could be "washed" away. All of them, with no exception!
Don't ignore this situation.


Monday, February 13, 2012

I read this scripture in the Bible , but I don't see this scripture in today saints.
The Apostle Paul loving Jesus and the Gospel more than life itself, suffered so much for the Gospel and the work of the ministry wrote this to the Church of Jesus Christ.
1 Cor. 13:4 "¶ Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, DOES NOT SEEK ITS OWN, is not provoked, thinks no evil;6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7. BEARS ALL THINGS, believes all things, hopes all things, ENDURES ALL THINGS."
From where I stand it seems to me that nearly every decision the modern child of God makes today's is based on seeking his own benefits. They refuse to bear any hardship for the work of the ministry. I had someone tell me recently they could not go to the church where the their heart wanted to go to if they wanted to live peaceably in their home. I thought of the many women in the early days of Pentecostal church who were lock out of their homes at night for going to church. Many were even beaten. My own grandmother, Rosa Cadwalter and her brother, Hugh Cadwalter were thrown out of their family's home for receiving the Holy Spirit. When given a choice, they chose to serve their God in the way they knew was right and real. Because of their choice and many more saints, the Pentecostal Denominational is the largest Protestant organizational today except for the Roman Catholics church.
Today many have sold out their convictions for less than thirty pieces of silver and will not endures anything that has some kind of pain or pressure for the cause of the Gospel. But rather for the most part they seek THEIR own as does the world. I ask myself what happen to the child of God that understood his position in Christ, "that after doing all STAND.
2 Cor. 4:16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day.17 For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, 18 while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal."
I can truly boast in these scriptures for they have been tried in me many times. Many people as well as ministers have tried to talk me out of my own convictions, telling me that God did not want me to suffer for the Kingdom of Jesus Christ. I believe instead of asking out of every trial, ask God for more GRACE. GRACE that is much bigger than the trial. Also sometimes God is working on you. Remember what Peter said " 1Pe 4:12 ¶ Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you;." The Apostle Paul said he bore the marks of the Lord Jesus Christ in his body. Child of God there are trials but He will deliver you out of them all if you are faithful. I don't regret a time that I trusted in HIS WORD and His faithfulness in my life.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011


Today I woke up with these scriptures in Joe 2:25 "So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, The crawling locust, The consuming locust, And the chewing locust, My great army which I sent among you. 26 You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied, And praise the name of the LORD your God, Who has dealt wondrously with you; And My people shall never be put to shame. 27 Then you shall know that I am in the midst of Israel: I am the LORD your God And there is no other. My people shall never be put to shame. The word restore mean s to give you back what was stolen or lost from you. And thank God for that, for in my case it was a very good life But most people think it means more than you had before. Jesus restore back what was lost in the garden with Adam and Eve. Mt 17:11 Jesus answered and said to them, "Indeed, Elijah is coming first and will restore all things. That was our salvation and commutation with God again through the cross. Plus He redeem us from the curse of law of sickness and poverty.
But going from Glory to Glory is quite a difference thing. The Lord will restore you. But why be content for just that, even though that feels pretty good. But while you were on the ash pile, was it not there that you realized you missed the mark in your expectancy of His promises? I certainly did. I realized I had settle for less than God had promised, I had short changed myself. therefore it was not too hard for the thief to pull the rug from under me. We must take our place in His kingdom where it will be more difficult for the enemy to tumble us out of our place.
I remember once when I was in Asia ministering that the people put me in a place where the enemy would have to go through three sets of groups of people before anyone could reach me. Believe me it was hotter in that room where I was staying, but safer. To destroy me they would have to destroy all those other before they could have reached me. What I am saying is Isa 54:2 "Enlarge the place of your tent, And let them stretch out the curtains of your dwellings; Do not spare; Lengthen your cords, And strengthen your stakes. We have too much at stake to be in a place where the enemy can use a few people to destroy what God has given unto you. 1Ch 4:10 And Jabez called on the God of Israel saying, "Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!" So God granted him what he requested. I pray this prayer too enlarge my territory so that evil cannot reach me and cause me pain. Yes there will be battles, but battles with God help you will always overcome.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Blessings for such a time as this

At 5:30 this morning the scripture came to me of, Esther 4:13 And Mordecai told them to answer Esther: "Do not think in your heart that you will escape in the king's palace any more than all the other Jews. 14 "For if you remain completely silent at this time, relief and deliverance will arise for the Jews from another place, but you and your father's house will perish. Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?"
Esther did not want to rock the boat in her chosen life. Life was good, better than it had ever been. She was afraid to ask the king for anything unless he called for her. She didn't want to risk her life. who would? Yet Mordecai knew how desperate his position was as well as all the other Jews were. He loved Esther and he didn't want to put her life at risk, but there had to be someone to help them. She only was close enough to the king to stop the destroying of the Jews. She reluctantly obey and saved Mordecai and the Jews lives as well as her own life. Her life was saved by her mercy to Mordecai.
Thirty years ago our old church in Cushing, OK. hit hard times during the oil fall. I went to one of my millionaire friends who had made that year eleven million in oil. I asked for help. Her husband had instructed her not to help us, but secretly she did anyway. A few years later her husband lost everything overnight, because he hired a lawyer that was a thief. She called me to her home to asked if I thought she would lose their beautiful home. I started to tell her yes, because her husband would not acknowledge God in his tithes. But the Lord stop me and said that she had been like Abigail was with King David before he ever became king. The Lord reminded me of her gift that had been given secretly to our church. I spoke into her life that she would not loose her home, because she had bound mercy around her neck in our time of need. And she lived in that home until they moved to California.
Healing Ministries Bible College like Mordecai, is fighting for survival. I humbled myself and asked for help on Facebook to those who knew the Rathbuns and Healing Ministries Bible College. To my amazement none, but three women who had very little to give were the ones that heard my cry.
I know my God will bring us victory from another avenue, because HE is faithful. But remember when you think you are so secure that you can put your hands over your ears when one cries, remember this Proverbs 21: 13 ¶ Whoever shuts his ears to the cry of the poor Will also cry himself and not be heard.

Monday, November 21, 2011

There is a lot of SHAKING GOING ON

The Lord spoke to me Friday as I was riding in my car about all the shaking going on from the earthquakes on the earth. Hebrews 12: 26 whose voice then shook the earth; but now He has promised, saying, "Yet once more I shake not only the earth, but also heaven." 27 Now this, "Yet once more," indicates the removal of those things that are being shaken, as of things that are made, that the things which cannot be shaken may remain. 28 Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom which cannot be shaken, let us have grace, by which we may serve God acceptably with reverence and godly fear. 29 For our God is a consuming fire.” The earth is being shaken because of their sins and judgment has come, but the heavens are being shaken also, which is the Church that is sitting in heavenly places with Christ Jesus. The reason is because God is squeezing and pressing us to come out of our little inhabitation and stretch ourselves to be what Romans 8:18 says, “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. 19 For the earnest expectation of the creation eagerly waits for the revealing of the sons of God.” The shaking going on is proof that this is the Day of Lord where the Church will be also glorified together with Christ. We are the light of the WORLD and the city that sits on a hill Stand up and allow God to be in you what you were created to be for this day